Signing off.

Dear moon,
It's been too many days since you've been missing from my skies. You seem to have taken all your moondust to a galaxy i haven't yet known of. But i hope you're doing just fine there.
I hope there's someone in that colossal galaxy who waits for the sun to go to sleep ,and for black to take over the blue skies just to get a glance of you. My darling, you've been outshining my love for for you with all of your hatred.
And all of your freckles seem to sing to me of the melodies Mozart couldn't finish off in his lifetime.
Your eyes gleam and mine burn from your shine. For your shine, is from my pain and you reflect all of it back to me.
Remember that day? When i was in the hospital and you were pretty near? You couldn't come see me, for once.
I hadn't known someone I would've given up my life for, someone i gave up everyone for, would give up on me for people who weren't supposed to stay anyway.
It hurts in my guts- some corner which i can't describe. It hurts like something screwing inside of it and tearing it slowly- tasting each of the cells with melancholia bursting through their sidewalls.
You. Broke me in a way that I bleed poetry through the vessels which long to be anywhere but inside of my body.
My skinshed has been sequinned with misery on the sides of all the voids your fingers have left on me.
And i can't seem to avoid hurt anymore.
The thought of you, and how you're doing fine without me.
The thought of you, and how you were perfectly okay when i was suffering so bad that even my enemies brought chocolates for me.
The thought of you, and how you've never cared enough.
The thought of you, and of what i lost when I lost you- and how you didn't lose anything when you lost me.
It's killing me in ways I don't know how to fight.
But people.
Have been telling me that I can't be where i am in my life- anymore.
I let down my guards and the blame is for me to eat for i would be gone soon.
I've suffered more than i should've and it's about time i bid adieu to my grief.
That i love you? Isn't a sin and i don't deserve to be punished for something which wasn't wrong to start with.
So here i am, telling you I'm leaving with you my heart and i know you won't keep it safe.
But it's okay, because i still love you. And you can keep it as you want.
You can keep my heart. And crush it.
You can keep my heart. For it hurts inside of me.
You can keep my heart.
And.
I'll keep my Sanity.
It's about time. I leave.
Leave.
To never come back.
Signing off
Your lover.